Okay, i decided that i need to close this account down, ppl i know at skool smile at me and wave hi and then they write shit down about me- well you know what- im sick of it! I DIDN'T MAKE KRODA LOSE HIS BEST FRIEND!!!! THEY STILL TALK AND THEY'RE STILL FRIENDS!!! WTF!!! IM THE PROBLEM IS THIS GOD FORSAKEN WORLD~ but all that's about to change, i TRY to talk with kroda~ i know i was pissed off at the library, i don't want Ash to lose his friends because of me~ i cryd today so much~ bc of all that's going on, im probably gonna cry more when i get home bc all this is turning at me even at home~ cuz i can't run away from the HYPOCRITES!! I'm saying the truth- im thinking suicidal up to this point, and im holding myself in- im holding in all this pain inside trying to figure things out~ So, if im lost, why won't anyone help me make a fuking decision!Why doesn't anyone tell me if i should apologize to kroda, why won't anyone help me down this damn road that i'm trying to walk by myself- kroda you said u would never give up on me~ then why aren't you taking my hand down this road of pain? Like you said on the notebook "i can't give up on you, and i never will"? What happen to the kroda i know~ im sorry i was mad during lunch, im sorry i've hurt you in any way, im sorry that i've said those horrible things to you, and im sorry if i made you lose your best friend....

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